(2024-04-20) The Light Within

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Author:	inkie
Summary:	On the eve of the final assault on Icecrown Citadel, Ben writes home to Mizzy.
Rating:	T for Teen

Arc: Season 13

Chain: Bizzy

Dear Mizmainy -

It is on us finally. By this time tomorrow I will be inside Icecrown Citadel. We have got the call to join up with the main force in Light’s Hammer the Ashen Verdict base inside.

It has been a hell of a push to break through the Scourge lines this last couple of weeks. I have seen some shit that I am glad you will never and I have done some shit it is probably good you do not know about ha ha. I do not think I have been as dog tired as this last week neither some times I swear I have just fallen asleep on my feet waiting for the next thing.

The waiting for things is the worst. When you are in the thick of it there is nothing to think about but the fight in front of you. But when there is a break in the action or a lull then you either got time to start thinking way to much or you realize how tired you are. At first I was doing way to much thinking but then even the thinking tired me out and I was just asleep standing up.

I do not think I will get much sleep tonight though. It is not going to be just Cobalt in there tomorrow it will be every one we are backing up. The Ashen Verdict and the Argent Crusade and the Ebon Blade. I guess those are all kind of the same people. Plus army and other mercs all kind of tournament champions.

I can not stop thinking about the fellows we went in with last week after Frostmourne. How many there was when we went in and how little there was when we come out. Watching them all just drop like that when that frost worm came at us.

That frost worm is in there to. In Icecrown. And probably a dozen others.

I am not saying because I am scared. I do not think I feel scared exactly. Maybe I am just to tired to be scared. I just keep thinking about those fellows and how fast they was gone and who there friends and family was. And they will get told there fellows died heroic deaths which on the one hand is true because if I can be excused for saying it I think it took a hell of a lot of nerve for any body to get this far and come this close and be willing to step in that place so all of those fellows was heros for sure. And some of them just a minute before was cutting down Scourge and proto dragons and letting slaves loose which was heroism. But the way they actually died was just a dead dragon took a breath and they all went out like candles with not even a fight.

I do not know what I am getting at really. To much thinking and to little sleeping I guess.

I do not want to have to come out of that place after tomorrow and tell any body what a hero there loved one was. I do not want to have to report to Sir Elohad or Captain Jo that someone was a real hero in there up until. I know I am going to see more fellows go out like candles that easy and I do not know what I will do if it is Cobalt people.

Our job is to bring down the Lich King. But my job is to bring back our people to.

I am not for real wishing you was here because here is a pretty hard place to be right now and also because home is the most important and what ever the hell is going on down there I know they have got you to manage it. But I do wish you was here just because I miss the hell out of you.

I do not know what to make of this stuff with earth quakes and all I have been hearing some pretty wild shit from all over. I do not know how the Lich King would be behind it but he did say that wierd thing in Howling Fjord about being a shaman so who knows maybe? So maybe when we kill him it will all settle down again. Mean time I hope Walton is being a help to you and that if you have got to move people they will see sense. I will try to be home as soon as I can and help with all of it.

I am really looking forward to getting home to you.

The Light is my shield and my stronghold. It is with me and within me and I will not falter.

But also you are my little light I carry in the darkest places. I love the hell out of you and I hope you will not forget it.

All my love,
Your Ben