(2023-11-26) Iphindra's Journal: Entry Two

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Author:	Saaron
Summary:	Iphindra writes about her second mission on the Cobalt Company squads.
Rating:	T for Teen

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mentions of hurting prisoners, and feelings of regret

Loyal, obedient, strong. Loyal, obedient, strong.

It’s not easy staying loyal, obedient, and strong sometimes. The missions we had to do this time… Some gave me a… feeling I don't know. It was as if I was clenching my stomach, and shivers were running down my shoulders. But I wasn't cold! Northrend doesn't feel cold! I don't know why I was shivering. And when I had to hit one of those prisoners to pretend I was one of these Hyldnir, it felt like my head hurt a little and the shivers were stronger and stronger! If Cressidha felt this way, I understand why she decided to not do anything.

The rest of our mission went fine. We saved a goblin from a fighting tournament he may have lost his life in. Velrin is going to become the new queen of the Vrykuls thanks to this other woman we saved in there, an illusionist, a Yrkvinn.

Anyway, since then I've had this other feeling. It's like when Linwel told me I was feeling sad, when my body feels heavier and pulled towards the ground, but it's a little different. It's in the back of my head, hidden deep, but it's there, always, and it gets a little stronger when I think about what I did in those mines.

But I think I showed my teammates I'm loyal, obedient, and strong! That's what I have to think about. They know they can trust me and my abilities! I hope the rest of our missions will be a little different, moving forward.

The kobolds we saved last time, they attacked the town of goblins we are trying to befriend. At first, I felt this sadness that stays in the back of my head, but not anymore. They were afraid in those caves, it was a good thing we helped them. What they chose to do with the lives we saved isn't up to us, however! And they were only defending their territory. We can't say they acted out of evil intentions… At least I don't think so. It's just too bad we couldn't live in harmony with them.

I still haven't had a dream. I thought since Northrend made me sleepier I would maybe finally have one, but no. Not yet! And to be fair, with what we had to do with my team and the feelings I have, I'm not sure I'd want to know what kind of dreams my mind would reach right now!