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27th entry of Gausanders Spellbond’s journal
It’s been a while since I last wrote a journal entry! It’s funny, I’m supposed to write what happens, to keep records for the future, but it’s when a lot of things are happening that I don’t write anything at all.
So, let’s start with Company business!
We’ve been in this… naga place, under a lake. It’s full of monsters, bad mushroom people, and lost druids. We found… most of the druids. I mean we found them all, but one of them was dead already, unfortunately. Apparently, Blue Squad had to face the same sad conclusion on their side of the underwater naga place. I wish we could have helped all of that druid’s lost friends…
I died, apparently, today! I don’t remember it. I just know that I was pushed off a platform by a big hydra and fell into the water. I think I was attacked by something, but I’m not sure. It just felt like I blinked, then poof, everyone was around me!
It’s so cool! I died and I was brought back! Didn’t see that one coming, uh! Kind of wish I could remember all the details, now! I could tell people “Hey, so, it’s like that when you die”, for those who don’t like surprises!
Anyway, Colson brought me back to life, of course, or I wouldn’t be writing this! He said I was very resurrectable. Maybe the Light still likes me a little, in its own weird, naaru-giving-me-a-headache way!
Ben and Colson also died today, but the latter came back immediately thanks to a soulstone, and the former died a few times before already, so I guess he’s more or less used to it, even though he still looked a little shocked when it happened today. Maybe we never do get used to dying, as humans, uh?
Okay, I guess this is also a little bit Company related…
It was difficult, last week, to work all together. Rae was still a little upset at… me killing her, and I was upset at her being upset, but not upset at her because she was upset. Makes sense, right?
Anyway, I tried to give her space, and it was really hard to work like that. We both had talks, me with Colson and she probably with both Colson and Ben, and then when we saw each other today, she was like “I’m sorry I didn’t trust you after you killed me!” and gave me some Felweed. I accepted her apology because honestly, I think I’d be pretty upset too if one of my friends killed me.
I’m going to try to plant it and grow a brand new plant. I want to keep her gift with me for as long as I can, and if I just keep it like that in my bag, it’ll die pretty soon. Letting it die! That’s no way to treat a gift! I’m going to ask around the Scryers part of the city if they know how to keep Felweed healthy!
Oh, also, I forgot to tell Rae I was going to train to protect myself from mind control, to make sure… this never happens again.
Honestly, I was so scared to go work today with White Squad. I didn’t want to make Rae uncomfortable again. I thought about not going, even! So I’m glad we could have this little talk before leaving. Made me feel much better, and it was a breath of fresh air, after the few weeks I’ve had!
So, for the non-company related things… I don’t even know where to start! So many things happened, and they’re all so important!
Okay, I’ll start with Gwen.
She helped me a lot!.. Dang it, I should have started with the other news, because now I’ve begun talking about how Gwen helped me, but I can’t talk about what she helped me with or I’ll have to pause talking about Gwen and talk about something else even though I said I was going to talk about her!
Anyway! Gwen! She helped me a lot. And we held hands a lot. And when I’m stressed, or scared, just by being there and speaking to me, she always makes me feel better!
I’ve been thinking about asking her out on a date. A real one. Because every time we spoke, recently, it was to talk about… the thing I’ll be talking about right after this! Not about her, or how she’s doing, even though it’s just as important, if not more!
So yeah… maybe I’ll ask her if she wants to go for a picnic or dinner, or something, and not just to ask for her help, this time!
So, what I’ve been avoiding talking about because talking about Gwen was very important!
I’ve met with Therald. Gwen organized a meeting. She ended up telling him I was looking for my dad, apparently, and he seemed to react pretty strongly to that!
He is my dad! He talked about a “Leghan”, and based on Auralind’s vision, it really looks like he is! I mean, how many “Theralds” have a son my age named “Leghan”?
We talked for a bit. We promised we’ll see each other again.
He was very emotional about that meeting. He was ugly crying, even! Honestly, I was completely sure he was my dad when I saw that. I’m just like that too!
It was moving for me too, to finally meet my dad after 20 years like that, but… Maybe not as much it was for him. I don’t know. It’s going to take some time, but for now, it’s like I met… a stranger. A stranger I know is very, very special, but still a stranger! I guess it was a lot more bittersweet for him because he remembers me as a baby, he remembers what he’s… lost. I don’t. I just know life with mom, and not with Therald and Sirie.
So yeah, I’m really happy I’ve got to see him. I wish I’d met him sooner and I’ll definitely see him as often as I can from now on! But I don’t feel… as emotional about this whole thing as he probably does. I just feel happy, very happy, even. It just feels good to know my dad and to know that he cared about me. I feel kind of sad for him that I don’t feel all the conflicting emotions that he does. I won’t let him know I don’t, though!
Anyway, that’s one more thing on my to-do list.
Grow my own Felweed plant.
Hang out with my dad more.
Look more into Sirie Netelle (he didn’t share a lot of details about her, but I know her full name, maybe I’ll find some stuff about her and her my family)!
… and maybe go on a date with Gwen, if she wants to.
Oh, also, save the Outland! And take care of this mysterious egg I’ve received!
I went through Forlorn Cavern recently, while I was in Ironforge, and a day later I received a letter telling me I’d won an egg! It’s grey-ish, with a little bit of green, and it has little spikes on the top. I have no idea what is inside that egg, but the letter told me to take good care of it and it’ll eventually hatch. I know eggs need warmth, so I’ve been keeping it with me, in my backpack that I’m wearing backward. That way I’m always keeping an eye on it! Plus, when I cast fire spells (as an honorary fire mage*), it gets extra-hot around the egg!
*Oh yeah, since my dad’s with the Argent Dawn and Auralind saw in her vision of my parents a Felguard killing people, I didn’t have the courage to tell him I was a warlock. I’m a fire mage, now! Colson said that it was important for me to tell him the truth but… You know, I never told mom we worked in Duskwood, since she didn’t want me to go there, and nothing wrong ever happened to her or me because of that. Sometimes, lying is okay!